Haven't been writing in my journal as much.....my life is getting pretty busy these days since I decided to change careers and am back in school....my classes are difficult.....Chemistry and Advanced Algebra....things that I am not innately good at...however I went to my first chem class last night and was surprised to find that I actually followed what was going on and did well on my first lab....and I have a couple of friends who will be tutoring me...so I'm not too worried.
Well...I've gone and done what I said I wouldn't do.....I'm back in contact with the guy that I got involved with a couple of weeks after splitting from my ex-fiance last year....we have been on and off for the last year....he started out as a rebound...but then feelings developed..but everytime we get close one of us backs off because of being hurt in the past...but the sex is amazing and he looks like one of those roman statues when he's naked (I like to take pictures...hee,hee) and he's young.....which I pervertedly go for...but for those of you who are asking...yes....he is legal! He's 23. So, I guess we are going to start having sex again...that's really all he's good for...god, I'm terrible..but hey, I'm jaded and I've decided that relationships are only for masochists....plus, I think if I ever do decide to get in a relationship, it will be with a woman. I think that I will eventually settle down.....stress on the word eventually...with a nice woman and have a little family with my son and his two mommies. Okay, now I'm just rambling because I haven't slept all night. I got into a fight with my best friend on the phone last night which led to a lot of yelling and then a lot of crying and then a lot of I love you's and then me feeling like balls for the rest of the night. So, now I'm going to go see my son off to school and then go to bed until it is time to meet with my friend for chem tutoring. So to those late nighter's who are just now hitting the sheets...good night all.
Well...I've gone and done what I said I wouldn't do.....I'm back in contact with the guy that I got involved with a couple of weeks after splitting from my ex-fiance last year....we have been on and off for the last year....he started out as a rebound...but then feelings developed..but everytime we get close one of us backs off because of being hurt in the past...but the sex is amazing and he looks like one of those roman statues when he's naked (I like to take pictures...hee,hee) and he's young.....which I pervertedly go for...but for those of you who are asking...yes....he is legal! He's 23. So, I guess we are going to start having sex again...that's really all he's good for...god, I'm terrible..but hey, I'm jaded and I've decided that relationships are only for masochists....plus, I think if I ever do decide to get in a relationship, it will be with a woman. I think that I will eventually settle down.....stress on the word eventually...with a nice woman and have a little family with my son and his two mommies. Okay, now I'm just rambling because I haven't slept all night. I got into a fight with my best friend on the phone last night which led to a lot of yelling and then a lot of crying and then a lot of I love you's and then me feeling like balls for the rest of the night. So, now I'm going to go see my son off to school and then go to bed until it is time to meet with my friend for chem tutoring. So to those late nighter's who are just now hitting the sheets...good night all.