muse25

Last night I watched two boys try to kill a fly for a half hour. They were giving each other military signs....and when the fly would land, they would go around the room beating on the couches and bookshelves trying to flush the fly out of hidding. The fly met its fate and was killed ....and as they sat on the couch....satisfied....another fly landed on the TV screen.

Last night I called my friend and made her get out of bed and meet me. Once she got there, I straddled her and told her to close her eyes. I kissed her. Her kisses tasted like strawberries. I told my friend to taste her lips...and they kissed for ages.

I sat back and smiled.....life is good.

Last night I was overwhelmed with sleep. I couldnt keep my eyes open....as I drifted in and out of consciencness....I would open my eyes for a drowsy second...and see him staring at me. It felt safe. I slept with his arms around me...and snuck out in the morning. He's a good friend. Safe and fun. Drama free....

This morning as I pulled up to my house....and wanted to keep driving by. This house holds my possesions....but it doesnt posses me anymore. I want to take my things and leave. I dont want to be here....I just want to go.



where the hell did I go for all these years? Why did it take me so long to wake up? Im so fucking angry....I'll never do drugs again. I'll never settle again. I'll never hide my rage with laughter again.

I'll never miss out on strawberry kisses again.