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Fucking shit. I hate decisions that will drastically alter my life.

I applied for the Phoenix Fire Department a long time ago and they told me that it would be a few months before I would be called up as a part-time employee if I got the job. I got the job and got put on a list. I also started working for a large corporation as a kind of "temporary" job until the PHXFD called me. I found out that the corporation was run really well and that I was really good at my job. So last week I applied for a training position and they just let me know yesterday that I was hired for the position. I've only been with them for five months and they trust me enough to train their new hires.

When I got home last night I had a message on my phone. The PHXFD called me and let know that I've been called up to work for them. I busted my ass for that job but became so enamoured with my current job that I forgot all about it. Now I have to let them know by Monday if I still want to work for them.

It's a really good career and I'd hate to give up the chance. They are really selective about who they hire (3500 or so people applied and 25 were put on a hire list.) The place I work at now is not as selective about who they hire but they are selective about everybody that they promote for other positions in the company. I have to choose between two careers and I have to do it in four days.

Needless to say I got thoroughly piss-ass drunk last night and called in today. I'm just fucking confused about what I should do.