Wednesday Apr 01, 2009

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Go back to read that other blog. It will explain where I have been and what I have been doing.
I just got this PM from a new friend. A friend that I can see is going to be around for awhile. She is a very nice and insightful woman and I am so glad she found me. We all need at least ONE person in our lives that can say these things to us, and make most of the pain go away. I have a few.. and I am more blessed than most.

"People don't understand us they never will, were sick and were too caught up in life and feelings because we cherish everything"

I am NOT self centered in a bad way and I am NOT drama filled. I actually FEEL everything. Yes I am going to get hurt this way, but I am sorry, I would rather get hurt so badly that it feels like my chest is being ripped out, than to never have those feelings at all. I loved. I had a great love. And I am happy for that.
I dont need to work on letting things go.. I need to work on accepting them.

So fyi I DO cherish everything. When I love I love with my whole being and when I do something or say something I do it or say it with everything I am. That may make me intense but ya know what? I dont care. I love me..and if you dont...ok. smile

Thank you hunny for that. That really DID completely change my outlook on EVERYTHING!

kiss

You really ARE a 2 of Hearts hun! biggrin

I wasnt going to address this, but I kinda feel like I should. I revoked my hopeful status. Yours truly is no longer a hopeful I am not saying I will not post nudes, and I am not saying I will not model. Just not for SG. I love this site, but its not what it once was. Now its a popularity contest and to be quite frank, I am way too old to be putting up with that crap. SG has been a big part of my life and has allowed me to be who I am.. but I no longer wish to be a suicide girl. No worries, you will still see me naked I am sure! wink This decision did not come lightly. It was not made overnight. I thought long and hard for MONTHS about it and finally realized that I really needed to do this.
so look out world, its a new Fishii... maybe even a new name!? hmmmm *poders*
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sjofn_:
all I said was some words... You though your the one that took it in action and became what you are right now, that my dear was your choice and only yours .... so the credit goes to you and not me.... but still I say thank you.

The way I deal with myself is different then the words or advice I give other people, I just don't want you to be angry or sad I don't want it to consume you to were you never let good things happen to you...

I'm proud of what your becoming keep it up, you become stronger every day
brooklynbabe:
Take some time out for yourself to heal and stop rebounding! LOL Easier said than done of course. YOu will feel sooooo much better once you slough through the muck of relationships past. Not for anyone but YOURSELF. And the day will come that you will find someone that you can spend the rest of your life with. No need to condem yourself to just the 'fun' chick. You can be fun and be in a long term relationship.

I'm a 'Miss Good Time' girl but I know I am deserving of a loving relationship and I won't give up hope just because of mistakes made in the past and you shouldn't either. Take this time to heal yourself inside and out, and at the same time don't lose your optimism. Even if you don't feel like being optimistic right now.

hugs&kisses!

I agree with you about SG. Love the site, but it is much different than it used to be.

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