I was in your shoes about five months ago. And then i moved out of my house, my depression was caused by the church i was going to and by the things i was doing to my husband, so i left. It made me question everything i do. So, i went to therapy, and still going and I'm still figuring out exactly what i want out of life and how to make me happy. During the whole thing i lost weight because i wasn't eating to make me happy. I'm not saying this to gloat but to let you know there are ways to ask for help and allowing people closest to you really know what's going on best thing i have done in a long time.