10 years have been passed, and still I can't stop thinking about what happened. You see, that was this girl, she was older than me and my friends, and she got ingaged with my (now ex) boyfriend's best friend. She was a Suicide Girl. 10 years ago I was not a kid, but not yet a woman, and I was way younger than her. At that time, I didn't like this thing, I mean, posing nude for photos. I didn't understand the meaning of this. She was a very cute girl, she was clever, she was into the alternative scene and was a vegetarian. I look at me now, and I guess that now I am not so diffferent from the girl she was at that time.
We argued about this "being a SG" thing, and I think that I was really mean to her. She was older than me, so I guess she let it go because of that (I would do the same, now). And then, some time after that (we went out all the weekend togheter because our boys were best friends) we started to talk to each other again, like "hello" and stupid things like that. But I did never apologize to her. And then she died (I'm sorry, I won't tell you why so please don't ask) and the weirdest thing was that her best friend called me moments after he found she was gone...me, you know.
People change, opinions change...we all change. And now here I am, in the same situation she was at that time. I will carry this burden and don't know how to say that I am really sorry. Maybe you were all the things that I would have become, and in some ways I was jealous. I don't know, I was Just a little girl, I don't remember after all this time. But I know something girl, I really have to apologize to you. I'm sorry @fujiko. Hope that, wherever you are now, you will hear this.
