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Shell let you in her house
If you come knockin late at night
Shell let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
Shell let you deep inside
But theres a secret garden she hides
Shell let you in her car
To go drivin round
Shell let you into the parts of herself
Thatll bring you down
Shell let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, dont think twice
Youve gone a million miles
How fard you get
To that place where you cant remember
And you cant forget
Shell lead you down a path
Therell be tenderness in the air
Shell let you come just far enough
So you know shes really there
Shell look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
Shes got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away
-bruce springsteen. (yes, i like songs by bruce springsteen)
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i'm in a strange place right now, gang. i think of memories and i get sad and i want to cry. oooh, deep, right? i think of the future and i don't know what's going to happen. again, profound, yes? i keep thinking of before sunset and how jesse and celine had their second chance and found it was real after all.
i don't know if right now is the time for the first chance. or the second. or whichever in a succession of chances it may be. i think if things don't go well i'm going to leave the site for a while. i have to get through school and start my career.
sad music doesn't help. damien rice isn't making me feel better. what the fuck do i do? happy music doesn't help much either, and the wine is just making me tired. send me a sign, other than everyone i know telling me there's trouble up ahead. tell me it's right after all. or i might have to go.
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MAN I'M FUCKING SORRY BUT WHO REALLY BELIEVES HUNTER S. THOMPSON SHOT HIMSELF? I JUST HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM DYING THE OTHER DAY. IT WAS A PURE DREAM, A SWEET DEATH. THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO WANTED HUNTER DEAD WERE SHITTY CONSERVATIVES WHO DIDN'T APPROVE OF HIS LIFESTYLE. JESUS, THIS IS A SAD FUCKING DAY.
SORT OF PUTS MY SHIT IN PERSPECTIVE. HE WAS A GENIUS WITH WORDS.
keep it alive.
***monday am:
The Word of the Day for February 21 is:
vicissitude \vuh-SISS-uh-tood\ Audio icon noun
1 a : the quality or state of being changeable : mutability b : natural change or mutation visible in nature or in human affairs
2 *a : a favorable or unfavorable event or situation that occurs by chance : a fluctuation of state or condition b : a difficulty or hardship attendant on a way of life, a career, or a course of action and usually beyond one's control c : alternating change : succession
-special thanks to webster's.
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Be glad you still have those feelings because the alternative is apathy and that is no good for anyone.
Me... I suppose I feel more inspired in those states. But at the same time I feel as if I'm on a slippery slope and could fall into that abyss of depression and loneliness.
Follow your heart. Anything worth having is rough and scary at times. If we don't then we'll never know what might have been. So first time or second time or whatever... take a chance.
Oh... and yes I do speak Mandarin btw.
Happy Monday Love!
I need to start a thread of some sort. I think I've only started one in my whole SG career!
[Edited on Feb 21, 2005 7:46AM]