moderncutthroat

There's nothing wrong with you. In fact while it's interesting that you experience it that way, it kind of makes sense. Work is work, *shrug*, but real life? Ugh, scary! All the best...

I know many providers who feel exactly the same way. I believe, when they are meeting a client, even for the first time, they have an idea of what is going to happen, whether it is a typical session, or a dinner date, or are going shopping. They know how the client wants them to dress and act.

You have a great deal of knowledge about a client, and power over him. Just meeting a guy is different.