when i started school i was a computer science major, and i compleatly hated it. pure hate. but i still did it because i went to a good school and i felt like i should keep trying...
but i finally couldn't take it. i switched to psychology, and now i'm happy happy happy. studying, etc... does not totally suck, because i actually think it's interesting.
if this quarter was so terrible, maybe it's just a fluke. improve a few things, study habits and the like, and you'll do fine. or maybe you need to switch to something that isn't so painful.
either way, i think you're extreamly smart, and i don't even know you all that well. i also think you'll suceed at whatever you want, whenever you want to.
you know i have to agree with those two girls about you...cause when i first met you i was really confortable around you and knew you were a good guy witha good heart..it just shines from you...*hugs* and i'm sure what ever you choose life will work out for you so that you will have a good one and not turn out like your father
Dude, that's totally not your fate. When in doubt, reflect on the films of Arnold Schwarzenegger... there is no fate but what we make. I think you know where that's from. I have a horrible father to avoid turning into as well, and I know now that I can never be him. I know who he is. I have his number. Now reflect on the holy trilogy... I'll never be like you!!! Shout this at the sky. Or get hammered and yell at the ocean.
I don't know you well, but I do know you well enough that you have an AMAZING gift (or a finely honed skill) as a writer. When you feel like you're suffering, it must be cuz you're building character. Lot of suffering? Well, you're a hell of a character. And you need a big base of character to support a lot of success (not simply the financial shit... but genuine happiness). You have the means to achieve your dreams. Don't give in to fear and doubt, it's not worth your energy.
ja.. your fate is what you make it. i know that it's hard when inertia grabs your ass and pulls you down, but you can still do plenty. if i were you, i'd go to your school's career center and ask them to help you find your niche. not like "computer science" but more like "this kind of programming in this language for a this kind of firm doing this really specific thing." i was listening to the radio about guys who make movie trailers. they were saying that nobody wants to make movie trailers as a kid - it's too specific. find something like that.
just my advice anyway...
oh - and you seem like a great person.. haven't known you for long, but by all rights you should be successful.
they say whatever dosen't kill you makes you stronger .
and it seems to me that with your strength and the friends you have you can make it through anything
my two cents aren't worth the dollar it would take you to make a long distance call with 10-10-220 but i'll give it to you anyways. you have good things coming i'm sure of it. you are a smart kid and you know how to treat people. that is one of the most important things in this world is making people feel good and you do that very well from what i have seen.
for some extra cash you could find some fourteen year old, get her all hopped up on acid, put her in a room with pictures of jesus all over the walls, and charge fucking pigs $50 a head to beat her into submission and then gangfuck her. shit, you could make a grand a day.
people who have never seen fear and loathing in las vegas are really going to think i'm fucking crazy.
Sounds like you're going through alot of soul-searching right now. From what I can tell it's similar to a phase I went through. I felt for sure I wasn't going to accomplish anything, but in the end that phase is part of what has brought me to where I am now, which really isn't a bad place to be. I wish I could offer you advice, but these usually have to be worked through, but I'd say you have some good friends and that's something you can definately take solace in. May fortune smile upon you.
You know you're a peach.