and sadly.. i know how you feel. i can relate to every goddamned thing you wrote in your journal. i used to be such a psychiatrist yet when it was my turn to to get some advice or comfort it seemed as though the other people didn't give a shit or weren't even listening. i've learned to stop befriending people or giving a shit because it's more tiring than anything else. that might not be a good way to go about things, but fuck it. it seems to be working out better. i don't have time to deal with people's problems. i have enough of my own that they'll never understand nor want to take the time out to do so.
You hit the fucking nail on the head.
Nice people who are willing to listen are the first to get trampled and shit on.
You rawk, Randy. If you were here I'd pet you while you screamed about stuff.
Soon as I'm legal to drive, you let me know when I can come up, and I will come up. Bearing Dreamery and willing to do your fucking hair, even. Everyone needs a chance to get it all out.
no no no!
Fuck that!
You can't get rid of me that easily!
Hit me up on AIM
or i'll call you
or - fucking shit - let's find a way to get your ass down to cali because I've got a great solution with which we can solve both our "not getting any" problems at the same time!!!
Ok man I'm backing off and letting you go for a while but don't think you're gonna shake us off that easy. Some of us just like you because of stuff like this. I still say you go tiger, kick ass and chew bubble gum. I'll catch you on the flipside.
Ok seriously...I know you do not know me from Adam. I'm just some guy that enjoys your wit and your journal entries. I think it sucks that even though you have done more than your fair share of caring for people and their problems they didn't do the same when it was your turn.
It has happened to me on so many occasions that I like you just shut everyone out so I don't blame you at all or think of you as a dick for feeling the way you do. Like I said I know you don't know me at all but I am a good listener and been known to give great advice as well so If you wish please feel free to contact me to vent, get advice, shoot the shit or whatever. I can only offer my ear to you and tell you that I will not be one to add to your load my dumping my problems on you because that is not my style. Please don't think I am offering you anything out of pity either because that too is not my style . I know that you will most likely not take me up on my offer and that is fine either way I wish you luck in getting everything back on track.
you deserve the right to whatever the fuck you want, randy. don't ever let anyone make you feel like you should EVEr have to apologize for feeling any way. it's your fuckign life and your fuckign feelings, and if you need me or anyone else to leave you the hell alone, I will.
-but I just want to let you know that regardless of anything I might say or not say to you at any given point, I DO care, and I wish you the best. really. know that.
Dave
your journal entry made me cry. not b/c you hurt my feelings or i think you're being a dick, but b/c of the fact that you were actually pushed to the point where you felt you needed to write this.
you can always talk to me about your problems. i'm a really good person to talk to.
Hey ....the offer was genuine and it still stands for you to use or not. Thanks for seeing that my heart was pure in my attempt to reach out. Hope you soon have all your troubles behind you.
Wow...deleting that entire friends list must have taken forever.
I got to the point you're at about a year ago. Life became much better after my rant, and it's been so much easier to say, "No...I need me time right now. We'll do coffee later." YOU are the most important person in your life, and I'm glad you finally realize that.
Hang in there. It gets easier from here. Trust me.
Are you gonna be ok man?