Randy, I know I'm talking to you right now, and that I've heard most of what you've just posted before. But, really, you're better than him, and most likely a more understanding person for all this.
I know you pretty well, I think you rock just how you are, and I wouldn't want you to change at all. You're who you are today because of who you were turned into. He may be an asshole, but he made you. Sometimes, that's all they do.
I with I could feel sad about this entry and give you a hug like it seems so many people have, but I can not. I find pain and suffering the basis of most good humor. And because of that and your style of writing, I find this entry blissfully witty and smart assed. I laugh at it just as I laugh about most of the shit in my life.
I hope to god you meant it to be funny (serious, yes. but also funny). Because it brightened my day. made me smile. You are a smart ass after my own heart and I commend you.
One day, we must get waffles. Still as promised: my treat.
"You know, you need a license to but a dog, or to drive a car, hell you even need a license to catch a fish. But they'll let any but-reamin' asshole be a father" - Parenthood
Just a little advice from someone who grew up under similar circumstances: Regardless of the pain under which you were raised, it is your formative years which determine the tenacity with which you will approach the rest of your life. I grew up in a different household from my brother. He grew up with our nurturing mother while I grew up with my neglectful father and my emotionally, psychologically abusive stepmother. I watched them hit each other when they were drunk. I spent a good deal of my childhood crying, I almost killed myself, and I developed a life threatening illness from the emotional trauma that almost killed me several times on its own. And I'm emotionallly fucked, no question about that. But I am a strong person. Think of it as trial by fire. If you survived, you know you can survive anything. You are a stronger person and a better person. You are so much deeper and self aware than those ninnies that grew up having everything they could ever want, including a semi-functional ( I say SEMI because no family is without it's own secret fuckedupidness) family. Hate is the most powerful and destructive emotion. It does nothing to the one you hate in all likelihood, and eats you up from the inside. You are not an emotional cripple. You just had a diffucult childhood and need to learn to draw strength from experience, not weakness, fear, and hate. As always, feel free to call me anytime when you want to talk.
I don't feel bad. It's not the subject matter I find funny (at all). It's the tone of writing ON the subject manner. I think I'm overly good at finding silver-linings sometimes. But you sir are a funny motherfucker.
BUTTSEX.
and I am sad that OOOOOOOG has less meaning now, but nevertheless:
