milonga

More work related heartburn...

I had the worst performance review of my career yesterday.

And then today, I got to a morning meeting 10 mins late (and someone told on me! mind you I'm in the 'corporate' world).
They wanted to fire me, but the director said to hold off beacuse of more changes coming up.
I was basically told to look for another job in a different team or outside.

When is Karma going to come around and bite these people in the ass?

They've been on me for the last 2 years or so. I think all my personal drama (separation from my daughter's dad, death of my grandmother, my dad's illness and then death) have affected my life and work greatly, yet, my managers don't care "other people go through this".

I feel like I'm tied down (and not in a good way). I have a daughter to support, my mom is selling her house and moving across the country to be with us and Bush f*cked up the economy, so the job pickings are slim.

All this weighing in my mind (on top of the relationship drama) and I can't sleep, which makes me super tired and lethargic in the mornings. Oh, and apparantely, I don't have the right level of 'engagement' - WTF! we changed teams and directors 3 or 4 times this year alone, and went through 2 major layoffs, where I saw some friends and close coleagues loose their jobs. Still, they expect me to come in perfectly dressed and ready to go - let's not forget that I'm not a brown-noser, which has negatively impacted my career as well.

BullSHT!

Okay... I feel a little better that I was able to type this up here for anyone to read - if they care to.