The fact of it is that no-one ever knows what conecssions we make for our loved ones - family or not. You should take it that the fact she doesn't know what you went through to see her off is a plus on your behalf. She probably didn't think you thought a shit.
that's cool, i'm still hoping to get more people to come but it's hard enough getting people out on a weekend. so many friends work or have school thursdays.
Good on you.