the days get blacker. yes. they do...

i will see you in four days. thursdayfridaysaturdaysundaythen. mel.

oh. and i deleted my journal. but that's okay because you already saw it. i just didn't want Rhys to, if you know what i mean. unnecessary. yes. you know what i mean.

love.
beck.

That makes me sad!

I have no idea what happened and I dont know why it was the boy friends fault (if you want to tell me you can but Im not going to ask) but what I do know is just by what you said is that he and his whole family are no good!

Well I will tell you I dont know that much about the place ether so its going to be like the blind leading the blind, but that is what map quest is for!

I would say remind me to give you a hug on saturday but I will not need that...you get a big one anyway.

I understand loss...(I will tell you about mine, I normally don't tell anyone but I think it would be ok).

My first fiance was a dancer in Memphis Tn. I was in the Navy and Memphis is where I was stationed to go to school to learn my job. I meet Sheri there dancing at a club and we started seeing each other. After a year we decided to get married but I was getting stationed in california. Sheri was going to collage at the time and was finishing up her last semester so she stayed there. After graduation she was heading to california so we could be married. She called me when she was in Texas, and we had the only fight in the whole time we were together. She died that night in a car accident, hit by a drunk driver. The bad thing was that I didn't tell her that I loved her when I hung up the phone that night. I will always wonder if she knew it or not. I will always blame myself for her death. She was going to stay and extra day in Texas and rest and I got upset because I wanted her with me. If I just would have let her be, I would have her with me now. I still miss her and love her now...over 20 years later. I will always blame myself.

I will see you saturday...