melissabird

the following blog may be fiction or may be nonfiction:
maybe its my life...maybe its just how I feel about things sometimes.....in my fantasies....
*sigh*....some men just don't get it....i came to the realization tonite that its over between me and the "friend"...(don't judge me)....I understand men don't want to get feelings and shit involved but at least make me feel like a human being....if I just wanted sex and an orgasm I can do that by myself at home....I felt so insignifiant, so unspecial, so cheap....we do it for two completely different reasons....I wanted to spend time with him, to feel beautiful, to feel special....he was doing it because he felt sorry for me, he just wanted to help me fulfill my needs....I don't want anyone to do that for me....why I even did it in the first place, i hate myself for it....but I have desires that are very difficult for anyone to fulfill, he was doing it....now he doesn't do it....even if he asked me to do it again because HE WANTEDTO BE WITH ME, I wouldn't......
I'm done....if anyone is going to be with me then they have to be with ME, not just my pussy, or my tits.....whatever.....