I hear ya about the Rutting, it's such a pain in the ass to break out, yet so difficult to give up what you've grown comfortable doing. I think you've got an excellent SG look, and you should definately get out there and record your beauty in photographic format!
Also, 22 was a good year for me, so hopefully the multiples of 11 will come around and make things all kinds of Awesome for ya. What are you doing for your birthday? Is there some kind of present that I can give you to make it a great B-Day?
I am obsessed with religions...not religion...but what people believe. I was excited to turn 33. At 33 Jesus was crucified and Mohammed received his first contact from God. Also, this was also the age that the Buddha left his family to look for answers. I thought that maybe something interesting would happen. I waited then turned 34. Now that was special.....
As a recent initiate to the 33 club, I must say, everything is going fine and dandy so far. The weather is warm, the people are friendly, and the bar is always full.
My first notable achievement in this year of impending achievements was to negotiate a new schedule with my [awesomely understanding] boss [and friend]. He has allowed me reduce my hours down to 3 days a week, from the 5.5 I have been doing for the last 3-4 years, so that I can regain some of my life back and concentrate on some personal projects (primarily involving art & music) that have been stagnating for longer than I care admit. I'm utterly stoked to have this opportunity, and this alone has already made it one of the most awesome years in the years of Nik's recent history.
Ah, ruts. These are easily overcome by relocation and I highly, highly recommend you try it. I am originally from Brisbane & Sydney, Australia and left my home to try living in a new city, and somehow ended up on the other side of the blue marble, in Los Angeles, California. This was a life changing experience that I will never forget. I spent much of my six months there skateboarding the streets of Hollywood and the Venice Beach/Santa Monica boardwalk, in deliciously-clichd, quiet contemplation, remarking on how wonderful life is in the modern world.
Not content to stop there, on my way back to the Great Southern Land, I decided to hop off my flight one stop early to try another new-to-Nik city; Auckland, New Zealand. While this sleepy town is much, much less exciting than the glitz and glamour of La La land, it is still nevertheless a new place in the world to breath air and experience life. From here I intend to try either Las Vegas, NV (for continuing work experience) or Melbourne, Australia (for continuing artistic exploration). London & Tokyo are also high on my list, but I haven't yet found a way to influence my life's path to those places.
All this while I have maintained the same, fairly-routine job that I have had in the many years prior to my global roaming, but with much less disdain. In new cities, unfamiliar territories and foreign lands, the monotonous duties of routine life such as buying milk from the market, the 9-5 rat race and all those other things that try so desperately to dliute the spice from life, just seem so much less, well, monotonous and routine.
Variety. It is indeed, the very spice that flavors this crazy thing called "life". I think there's a proverb about that...
Can't wait to see your venture into internet exhibitionism!
Happy birthday to your Mom!
Also, 3's are just so frakking cool, and soon you'll have two of them to play with! Enjoy the hell outta them!
(Wow, long comment! I should probably have journal-posted that... sorry for the torrent of text!)
No worries about getting another year older... Age is just a state of mind! I just turned 30, and everybody made such a big deal about it. My mom had a tough time with it, but she's alright. Guess she just remembers me being a baby and a goofy little kid.... Besides, 30 is the new 20.
As for the rut: if you aren't satisfied with what you have, make the changes that need to be made to get satisfaction! Talk to the boss, or their boss, get an audience with the people that can help you make those changes. Of course, you might wanna get a plan together, so that they know you mean business. What I find works in these situations: show them how you're going to make more money for them, so there is justification for your increase in pay! At least thats what I did, and it worked for me! I got a raise PLUS bonuses, PLUS I got out from under the jurisdiction of a shitty MGR. (we're equals, and it BURNS him... especially now, since they REALLY like me because I took the initiative to step up my game and make them more money!)
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Also, 22 was a good year for me, so hopefully the multiples of 11 will come around and make things all kinds of Awesome for ya. What are you doing for your birthday? Is there some kind of present that I can give you to make it a great B-Day?