I Am alive still, And This blog is going to probably be a tad lengthy so i wont blame you all for not reading, allot has happened since my last blog......
The reason for my lack of blogging, i am going to blame on 50 shades of glorious grey.....I'm not afraid to admit it, it is a fantastic book that i have thoroughly enjoyed reading.
So its coming up to that time of year where i become a really grumpy bastard for about 4 weeks, As its now 4 weeks away from the second anniversary of my mum killing herself and the same conversations have started up again, What are we going to do, do we have a celebration of life party again which turns into a family argument.....I mean, for fuck sakes we still haven't got her ashes in the ground and you are worrying about throwing a party for her? Jesus........ Hopefully this year will be different..... Sorry mother rant over.
So 3 weekends ago
I went to Goodwood Festival of speed, Which was amazing! So many classic cars and new prototypes on display, From a mechanics view, it was HEAVEN!! Also took my camera and got some good Pictures I think
Had a amazing day with my two brothers, who i have realized i do not spend anywhere near enough time with. I will have to work on rectifying this.....
2 Weekends ago
Was my friends Lazai's Wedding. I Traveled all the way from Bournemouth To Leeds (300 miles!!) and spent most of the day with a camera in my hand snapping photos! Not that i am complaining it was a really lovely day! And got a few cracking shots aswell
Also met a amazing woman there too, but i will get into that next.
All in all these two weekends have been the highlight of my year (other than joining here and meeting all you sexy people!)
And if you are still reading, Wow......
So this lovely woman I met, I have been single for nearly 2 years now, My last Girlfriend was a complete nutcase but that's another story all together.....But somehow i have found myself in the "Taken for" category and I'm not 100% sure how it happened.
Lets back tract this to the weekend of the wedding, Dave my partner in crime on this particular weekend, Has no standards......He was in a relationship and had been for awhile when we left little old Bournemouth to goto Leeds for this wedding. Now he had already been up there and met most of the people from previous visits, but me on the other hand hadn't. Watching him walk around trying to chat up anything with a pulse was rather comical as he is my complete opposite. At social event i suck massively, especially around woman. Dont get me wrong i can hold a conversation and will be pleasant until the cows come home, but picking up woman at weddings or in general has never been my strong point. where as Dave on the other hand is still going around trying after rejection after rejection.
SO back to the point, I notice this stunning bridesmaid, as you do, and the usual male thoughts occur, "damn i'd like to take that up to my room and show it a good time" etc. But as usual its just a thought and i progress through the day and evening being my pleasant little self. Later on in the evening I actually get talking to her and realize she is a remarkably funny, lovely caring young woman but still nothing happens.
Get back into Bournemouth, and as if like clockwork from most social events, fire up my PC to 27 friends requests from people at the wedding, Her being one (for future reference i will refer to her as J). The price you pay for being the young gentleman that everyone gets on with.....
So i get a message from her on Monday evening, and before i know it, it is 2am.....and this happened for the next few nights. She's amazing, funny, bright...............But she lives 300 miles away. Just my luck...... The more i talk to her, the more i feel like i want her, like what im guessing that little feeling that she could be the one is....
So two nights ago, she says her mum was talking about me to her work friends and wasn't sure what to refer to me as....... (I should have seen this coming.....) And before i know it the words "Would you consider me to be your other half" appear and send has been hit....... I don't know how she does this too me, its almost like i pass out when talking to her and have no control over my hand eye co-ordination.... I mean on what logical fucking planet does someone think that a 300 mile relationship will be easy and is likely to work long term? Dont get me wrong, i want this to work, or am atleast willing to give it 110% in trying to make it work, but theres that little nagging bit in the back of my brain that is screaming "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING MARK! SHE IS 300 FUCKING MILES AWAY! WHY ARE YOU SETTING YOURSELF UP FOR DISAPPOINTMENT!"
Argh..... I have written enough for now, So until tomorrow, goodnight y'all x
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