It sounds like you really did make the right choice for your situation. I haven't been in your shoes, so I don't know what it's like, but I do know that some right choices can be difficult, both before and after they're made. Just remember: the difficulty, all the conflicting emotions you may be feeling, doesn't mean you made a wrong decision. At all.

Hun, call me. Do you still have my number?

i know we've never spoken before, but i've seen you around in sgny. i was once in a situation you were in, and if you need someone to talk to who has been there already, i'd be more than happy to.