I worked my last Saturday of tutoring for the Spring season and having the summer off for weekends. I have been looking forward to this so much if only it allows me to catch my breath and refocus on myself.
I have been taking care of my focus pretty heavily over the last five years or so. This is on top of working two jobs.... the full time, very unfulfilling but okay pay -- the part time tutoring, feeling like I make a difference but is also very draining.
With this shift, I am hopeful the I can get some things turned back around and moving in better ways.
1) I want to get back to the gym - I was really proud of the weight I have list and the physical improvements I made. I was the healthiest ever in my life about 2 years ago... then my dad almost died at home and I gave up on the gym to keep a closer eye on both of my parents. I also kept repeatedly hurting my back while catching my dad before a fall or aiding my mom with her errands.. I have to get better.
And 2) Get down to just one job -- i would give up on both for the right position and this might be the best chance i get. The full time is soul crushing with no better way to go and the part time has no full time hours.... Hope to change this soon.
I know I need something more for myself. I am a good deal better than I have been (Yay therapy!) But it is time for more... better healthier me.