madness_____

Here's another guick update before I get busy again at work.

I've come to realize that my brain is trying to self destruct me. Luckily my heart is telling me that we ain't going out like that, we ain't down and out yet and they're is still hope. But I gotta to watch out, my heart hasn't always acted in my best interest and I've had to listen to my brain. It's hard to trust either of them.

And here's a tie in with my personal story:

Jonathan Brandas (i know that's not spelled right) committed suicide at age 27. If your 17 or older you should remember him (Seaquest, Neverending Story 2). I was thinking though that when you fall a certain distance in life, is it relative? I mean I would have to be living in a box before I decided to commit suicide. I think when Jonathan died he as still in a better position in life then what I will be in anytime soon. Or maybe he had a chemical inbalance and his brain self-destructed (which is all I believe suicide is).

I love thinking deep thoughts like this.

In will comment in your lovely journal if I can find some time.

Infidel