Honey you be whiny all you want! Its really not an easy thing, trust me think all the time that I just cant do this. I never think I want to end it, instead I think that I am going to pack up my car and run away to Tucson!! It will be worth the wait for me tho...and you will enjoy your time and be thankful to be home and in his arms. It will be a new feeling for ya hun...coming home and feeling like you havent seen him in years...and feel that content everything will be ok feeling. Its like being able to take a deep breath after running ...feels so amazing!

come back home my dear although i hope the ice melts by then

Congratulations. Sounds like you will have a wonderful holiday break. Have fun with your mom!

Of course you're right. It's just that I'm being hit with one disappointment after another. I was about as down as I ever remember being when I posted my latest blog. I know that there are caring people in my life. It's just that I'm having trouble accepting that there are limitations to what they can possibly do to help me. I know it's not that they wouldn't if they could. One thing's for sure. Self pity is a horrible emotion. Not only is it depressing, it's also a collosal waste of energy.

Thank you for continuing to be here for me. I hope you and yours have the best Christmas ever.

I am jealous that school is done for you! I still have to go in tomorrow. Thanks for the advice on the christmas gift I am going to go shopping sometime this weekend, I may ask you and Jewelz about what I come up with before I buy it.

I hear ya on the Power Shopping. I've got to start mine.
Enjoy.

Hope all is well with you and yours. Have a great holiday. You deserve it.