lost_to_me

Hmmmm.....I really find it painfully clear that I'm not the person my
phantasy ridden brain aludes to being. Sad. Too many idealistic
programs,movies and dreams make life seem a lot more meager and
depressing. Not that it is! But that someone elses portrayals; of
honor,beauty,diligence, self respect and a general understanding in real
time of lifes obstacles or challenges, can make you feel worse about
yourself.
Simple character, built in something other than yourself, should it
serve as inspiration or on a darker aspect is it unhealthy 2 dwell on
such things?
Perhaps its a simple yes or no to some people, others might argue
semantics of honor and virtue etc etc. But really I think that in
general life or society are all lacking these qualities. Making it more
diffucult and less likely to be exposed to them at a point and time when
there's no question as to what you are going to do about it.
Life is full of doubts, but as an impressionable innocent, the most life
changing decisions are made, and held up to in more complicated ways
than most care to realize.
Regret is lame, but its what I feel.

Jeremy aka "the jerk"