lokischild

Listening to Evanescence's live cd, anywhere but home, which is fucking amazing as is every evanescence cd.....
so....i'm going to college! that is soooo cool.....i sat down today with my sister and we figured out exactly what classes and stuff we need to take that's going to transfer and everything.....that is soooo cool for me....its like i'm going to have this normal life.....and that is such a miracle for my family.....i'm going to go to school and get a degree and get a job and a family and a home, and while what goes on within those set goals will most likely be vastly different then most peoples lives, thats what i want.....i want to beable to say i have no regrets.....i want to beable to see each experience for what it is......and for sure this is one experience i'm looking forward too....
so sometimes i feel like i'm in the middle of a circle of people that keep falling down and i have to catch them
before they hit the ground....and it's like they're all boneless but full weight so that each time they topple over it almost takes me with them...and i have to bear them up and sometimes it's a balancing act bc i have to hold up more then one person and it hurts so bad and it's so tiring.... and there's so many times where it feels like i'm about to fall over and drop everyone and myself....but there's no one there to catch me...
-=squish=-