So I'm trying to be an adult. I am trying to be independent and get my shit together. And not for Jeff, but just for me.
I decided to rent my mother's basement which is set up like an apartment and I get a lot of privacy for very little cost. However if Jeff leaves his sister high and dry over the apartment the three of us were going to move into I'll live with her, because she's really cool and there is no need for her to suffer from our breakup. Plus her current roomate is a cunt.
I've been accepted to the local community college here and I know that it's no big fucking deal, but who wants to pay University prices for the first two years of classes that will transfer anyway. So I start on Aug 20. And yes I am very excited. I am going to take one fun class and one required class to start with and if I can do that and work full time I will take more next semester.
I found a good job that offers medical/dental/decent hourly wage/etc. It's entirely mindless and boring. A trained monkey could do it, but I really like almost all of the people I work with. How often does that happen? I'm going to apply for a position that has come open for verification clerk, which would be a promotion, and even if I don't get it, it will show ambition.
I saw Jeff on Friday and it was very strange. We went to see Devils Rejects (NOT AS GOOD AS THE 1ST) and had dinner, and all was well until I took him home. I asked him if he wanted to talk, which I should have said hang out because I didn't really want to talk, but I didn't think I had to specify....but anyway he stayed in the car and I tried to come up with shit to talk about. Not really getting anywhere I brought up the other girl and pissed him off. An arguement insued. Afterward he kissed me and I wanted to kiss him back and at the same time I couldn't believe he was putting me in that position. I told him I wanted to be single and if he decides he wants to be with just me we could go from there. I don't know what else to do. I love him and don't want to loose him from my life. But also he's a different person now. Sigh.
I decided to rent my mother's basement which is set up like an apartment and I get a lot of privacy for very little cost. However if Jeff leaves his sister high and dry over the apartment the three of us were going to move into I'll live with her, because she's really cool and there is no need for her to suffer from our breakup. Plus her current roomate is a cunt.
I've been accepted to the local community college here and I know that it's no big fucking deal, but who wants to pay University prices for the first two years of classes that will transfer anyway. So I start on Aug 20. And yes I am very excited. I am going to take one fun class and one required class to start with and if I can do that and work full time I will take more next semester.
I found a good job that offers medical/dental/decent hourly wage/etc. It's entirely mindless and boring. A trained monkey could do it, but I really like almost all of the people I work with. How often does that happen? I'm going to apply for a position that has come open for verification clerk, which would be a promotion, and even if I don't get it, it will show ambition.
I saw Jeff on Friday and it was very strange. We went to see Devils Rejects (NOT AS GOOD AS THE 1ST) and had dinner, and all was well until I took him home. I asked him if he wanted to talk, which I should have said hang out because I didn't really want to talk, but I didn't think I had to specify....but anyway he stayed in the car and I tried to come up with shit to talk about. Not really getting anywhere I brought up the other girl and pissed him off. An arguement insued. Afterward he kissed me and I wanted to kiss him back and at the same time I couldn't believe he was putting me in that position. I told him I wanted to be single and if he decides he wants to be with just me we could go from there. I don't know what else to do. I love him and don't want to loose him from my life. But also he's a different person now. Sigh.
also i am going to the community college also. what classes are you taking?
ps you are pretty
My first real musical love was Tangerine Dream, and there still have 3 or 4 albums I can listen.
My current favorite german musician is Marcus Schmickler aka Pluramon. Did you heard about him ?