You are very wise to take your visit with Karl nice and slow. My time with Kathy has gotten much better just in the last 36 hours. That doesn't mean we're necessarily on the road to taking this to the next level. What it does mean is that we're very likely to have a much better time than the first week that I was here. That's already happening since Saturday night.
I'm nor going to see this as a failure if we decide not to go further after the 4 weeks are up. If we part company still being friends and staying in touch, it will be a positive exoerience. Besides, the truth is that our relationship was mostky formulated and based on our similar tastes in kinkiness. Whether that's a basis for forming a real relationship is something I have no idea about. Regardless, we're actually starting to have some fun together.
I wish you the best in your pursuit of happiness. I'm very glad that you're taking this leap of getting together with Karl. As in my case, I hope you will see it as a success even if it falls short of the ultimate hope of a romantic relationship. As long as there are laughs, friendship and good feelings between you, I'd call it a success. I hope you see it the same way.
I'm rooting hard for you to experience the best possible outcome from your meeting with Karl. If anyone deserves to find happiness, it's you. I know it's hard, but try to take a step back and take some pressure off of yourself.
Remember, he's going through the same doubts and questions as you are. Whether you want to believe it or not, you have a lot going for you. I see it and so will he, unless he's blind. I'm hoping to hear good things coming out of this.
I'll definitely give you a call when I get back to NYC. I miss you, but at least we're able to stay in touch through here or regular email.
Happy V. Day to you too darlin...