Ok. This is a stream of consciousness response to the blog I posted the other day about the bigot in the candy line at the movie theatre. I choose to write it in this style and I will not edit or read over it before I post it because this is my emotional energy in its purest form.
Im a positive, hopeful and most of the time, considerate person. Im not without my flaws. Im an idealist and I see how this can be problematic, especially when it comes to people who behave in unloving ways.
I think that my intolerance to the bigot is different from his intolerance to homosexuality.
He does not understand why a man could love a man in a romantic way or how a woman could love a woman in a romantic way. This is wrong to him. It has angered him.
My anger comes from the fact he is not only unwilling to try to understand this love but that he cant keep his opinion to himself. That he has to go out and speak loudly of it in a public venue making those around him uncomfortable and uneasy and yes, angry. This is different than my wish that people could just let people be. I reacted because in my mind he is an idiot. And even though I can choose who I want in my life and who I dont and that I definitely dont want people like him in my life I would not run around loudly making comments and making people feel uneasy for no reason.
Im envious of super spiritual people who have no anger, those who dont let things bother them. I wish I were like that but Im not. At least, not at the moment. Perhaps some day. Ive read books on spiritually and Toltec wisdom and I think its a wonderful way to want to be. Im still discovering and learning about myself and Im pretty aware of my behavior and my reaction to things around me.
I have a strong belief that a dislike of someone because of something that they have no control over, such as physical attributes, race or sexual orientation is wrong. This is my opinion. If it gets my ass kicked sometime, well, so be it. Its the way I feel.
Im a positive, hopeful and most of the time, considerate person. Im not without my flaws. Im an idealist and I see how this can be problematic, especially when it comes to people who behave in unloving ways.
I think that my intolerance to the bigot is different from his intolerance to homosexuality.
He does not understand why a man could love a man in a romantic way or how a woman could love a woman in a romantic way. This is wrong to him. It has angered him.
My anger comes from the fact he is not only unwilling to try to understand this love but that he cant keep his opinion to himself. That he has to go out and speak loudly of it in a public venue making those around him uncomfortable and uneasy and yes, angry. This is different than my wish that people could just let people be. I reacted because in my mind he is an idiot. And even though I can choose who I want in my life and who I dont and that I definitely dont want people like him in my life I would not run around loudly making comments and making people feel uneasy for no reason.
Im envious of super spiritual people who have no anger, those who dont let things bother them. I wish I were like that but Im not. At least, not at the moment. Perhaps some day. Ive read books on spiritually and Toltec wisdom and I think its a wonderful way to want to be. Im still discovering and learning about myself and Im pretty aware of my behavior and my reaction to things around me.
I have a strong belief that a dislike of someone because of something that they have no control over, such as physical attributes, race or sexual orientation is wrong. This is my opinion. If it gets my ass kicked sometime, well, so be it. Its the way I feel.
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not really, but what's up?
ya never call. never write. i only see you at strange let's spill our guts out in front of strangers affairs.
anyway, lemme know how you are. dag.