Hi,
I got up with him ready to Avignon. To this day I'm not with him. Leave it as my old shit. For some days I'm wrong. I hope this event back. I never thought he would leave me one day. I love it and I love it so much. That reason, that for him it going too fast. It would take time for him. Enjoy life. Why not have thought of that earlier. I give him hugely feelings. The project we had to create families!!! You should know that it was he who wanted it all. This is to propose that I come live with him. All what I gather it's a pain, lack. For some days I do not eat, I have a hard time sleeping. I hope it will all work out.
I know I could never get back with him. Yesterday I saw that he had deleted me is facebook friends. I can talk to him. I so badly....
I can not stay in the south. Know that I am a some kilometers to him, really hurts. I prefer to rebuild my life in the north of France. Being with my friends, my family. I miss it. I hope soon from the south. Currently I returned to my father, who lives in Le Luc. A city far from everything, I can even go out for fun. I know people. It's really hard. This is also why I need to go home to Amiens.
I apologize in advance for this sad blog. But right now I'm doing wrong and I need support, need to talk. But all need to go home....
Love you..
