I is a grumpy pants today. I woke up too early, had to venture out into the sun and heat, don't have enough money for dog food, and pretty much just... irritable all over. I hate being like that. I'm a pretty cool, sit around by myself and sketch cucumber for the most part. It's people that just seem to annoy the holy crap out of me most of the time.
I guess I tend to pick up the 'vibes' from the people around me and when everyone is high tension, running about, grumpy, in a hurry to get to the end of their lives, it just gives me this anger boiling under my skin feeling and I want to scream and kick people until they just relax. I know, doesn't make much sense does it?
I'm going off to a new place to work tonight. Hopefully it will be better than the previous places I've worked which I have not been a fan of at all. I've been working in the skeeviest dumps around here for a while now and I'm pretty over it. As a matter of fact I'm pretty over Arizona and I'd love to get the heck out of here but unfortunately the money situation right now isn't really helping me out with that in the least. I just can't make enough money at these crappy clubs to get ahead. For someone with no home I sure do have a lot of bills to pay. I'm sure all you know what's that like. You pay one bill and then magically it's back again and there are three more to add to it.
I tattooed another grapefruit yesterday. No photos this time though. It turned out really cool, it was a flying grenade, but then I used the extra ink to practice shading on the same grapefruit and it looked like poop with all the random dark stuff all around it. I should have taken a photo of it before I decided to put all the extra ink on it in random places. Next time I will for sure.
I wish I could find a shop to apprentice me. I'm pretty sure I'm not setting up my machine with the correct tuning, and it's not a very expensive piece of machinery either but I am just tattooing fruit with it at this point. There is NO WAY I'd go near someone's flesh with it. No way. Speaking of:
Here is a story of the stupidity of some people
Which, you may find amusing and sad at the same time. So, I'm at work and I was talking to Nix about the grapefruit tattooing and someone over heard me.
Girl: Can you finish the tattoo on my back
Me: Oh, no. You don't want me to do that. I've never tattooed a person before, just fruit.
Girl: But the outline is already there. All you have to do it color it in like a coloring book.
Me: Stunned look. But, I haven't ever actually tattooed a PERSON before.
Girl: That's ok. It's just color.
Me: Shading and color is really difficult to get right.
Girl: So how much will you charge me.
Me: Dumbfounded.
Nix: She isn't competent enough yet.
Girl: So, how about next week?
And I'm done. I hate to offend anyone but I just got up and politely and quietly walked away. I suppose there is no end to the amount of people you can find to let you fuck up their flesh and who are willy to pay you to do it. Although I really need the money, I'd like to think I have a lot more integrity than that. I know a LOT of people who would have just done it.
Someone apprentice me. I'm awesome.
And for anyone who didn't see it last time here it is:
Sneak Preview: I shot a new set with the wonderful photographer Jezel here in Phoenix. This is a sneak preview (set hasn't even been submitted yet for review). It's still being worked on as it requires some finesse for the theme.
It's Called: World of Tomorrow
The set is based on the movie Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow One of my favorite movies. I can tell you that this set has some amazing angles in it and that Jezel did an AMAZING job with the photography. That and she's super sexy and cool too! For the win!
I'm so excited to get it submitted that I could squee. I hope you all like the preview. ;P
PS: I made that dress: by hand.
I guess I tend to pick up the 'vibes' from the people around me and when everyone is high tension, running about, grumpy, in a hurry to get to the end of their lives, it just gives me this anger boiling under my skin feeling and I want to scream and kick people until they just relax. I know, doesn't make much sense does it?
I'm going off to a new place to work tonight. Hopefully it will be better than the previous places I've worked which I have not been a fan of at all. I've been working in the skeeviest dumps around here for a while now and I'm pretty over it. As a matter of fact I'm pretty over Arizona and I'd love to get the heck out of here but unfortunately the money situation right now isn't really helping me out with that in the least. I just can't make enough money at these crappy clubs to get ahead. For someone with no home I sure do have a lot of bills to pay. I'm sure all you know what's that like. You pay one bill and then magically it's back again and there are three more to add to it.
I tattooed another grapefruit yesterday. No photos this time though. It turned out really cool, it was a flying grenade, but then I used the extra ink to practice shading on the same grapefruit and it looked like poop with all the random dark stuff all around it. I should have taken a photo of it before I decided to put all the extra ink on it in random places. Next time I will for sure.
I wish I could find a shop to apprentice me. I'm pretty sure I'm not setting up my machine with the correct tuning, and it's not a very expensive piece of machinery either but I am just tattooing fruit with it at this point. There is NO WAY I'd go near someone's flesh with it. No way. Speaking of:
Here is a story of the stupidity of some people
Which, you may find amusing and sad at the same time. So, I'm at work and I was talking to Nix about the grapefruit tattooing and someone over heard me.
Girl: Can you finish the tattoo on my back
Me: Oh, no. You don't want me to do that. I've never tattooed a person before, just fruit.
Girl: But the outline is already there. All you have to do it color it in like a coloring book.
Me: Stunned look. But, I haven't ever actually tattooed a PERSON before.
Girl: That's ok. It's just color.
Me: Shading and color is really difficult to get right.
Girl: So how much will you charge me.
Me: Dumbfounded.
Nix: She isn't competent enough yet.
Girl: So, how about next week?
And I'm done. I hate to offend anyone but I just got up and politely and quietly walked away. I suppose there is no end to the amount of people you can find to let you fuck up their flesh and who are willy to pay you to do it. Although I really need the money, I'd like to think I have a lot more integrity than that. I know a LOT of people who would have just done it.
Someone apprentice me. I'm awesome.
And for anyone who didn't see it last time here it is:
Sneak Preview: I shot a new set with the wonderful photographer Jezel here in Phoenix. This is a sneak preview (set hasn't even been submitted yet for review). It's still being worked on as it requires some finesse for the theme.
It's Called: World of Tomorrow
The set is based on the movie Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow One of my favorite movies. I can tell you that this set has some amazing angles in it and that Jezel did an AMAZING job with the photography. That and she's super sexy and cool too! For the win!
I'm so excited to get it submitted that I could squee. I hope you all like the preview. ;P
PS: I made that dress: by hand.
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I'm very sorry to hear that things are still so difficult for you. Try to remember that stupid people breed. They're everywhere and we have to deal with them whenever we leave the shelter of our homes. It's perfectly normal to adopt a negative mood when there is so much negative energy around you.
I continue to hope things will get better for you, hun. =)