I think the title says it all. My life is just kind of shitty all around. I'm always stuck at hope with absolutely nothing to do because I'm always too broke or I have zero friends to do anything with, my phone sits silent about 99% of the time, the other 1% comes from wrong numbers or attempted scam calls, my so called "friends" are always too busy to even sit and chat for a little bit, I am constantly ignored by any nice girl I might see on a dating site or other social media, and I really just feel like I have nowhere I belong and nowhere I'm even needed.
It truly does suck being so unnecessary in the world and my therapist has no other advice but "go find things you enjoy to take your mind of it". If I could do that I fucking would.
My last attempt at doing something fun involved going to a cosplay party at a bar. I thought it would be cool to get out and maybe meet some new people, maybe chat up a cute cosplay girl and see where things go. I couldn't have been more wrong. I spent the party just sitting in a corner ALONE, just watching others interact. I tried starting conversations, but nobody seemed to interested in talking to a loser like me. And talking to any girl was pointless as they all had boyfriends. I just sat there bored and getting more depressed at how worthless my existence really is.
I belong nowhere and I'll die alone, unwanted and unloved.
