May have to do this for a while. It's perfect for my price range, pet friendly, and it's a one bedroom. And I really want to experience of living by myself before I move because when I go I want my own one bedroom and I don't want to Fuck that up so far away.

Jonathan and I worked things out and although I didn't want a relationship So soon after Zac and I, I would be a fool to let him pass out of my life. He knows exactly what he wants and I don't have to question his motives or loyalty. For once I'm not dating someone who leaves me frustrated and confused. Yes every relationship has a honeymoon stage, but it feels as though we've been together for much much longer already. Its just natural and I feel like I found my other half. I was feeling really at a loss for a while and it seemed like nothing wanted to give, regardless of my outward positive vibes. But this finally has. A new and beautiful relationship is unfolding for me and this apartment has seemed to fall right into my lap. I don't believe in coincidences so I should probably stay in Albany and ride this out.

For the first time in years I'm going to let this flow and fall the way it should. For the first time in years I'm not actually afraid of actually falling in love. For the first time in years I'm not going to hold back.

I am breaking my cycles.