lady_novocaine

so I'm feelig totally down but i think thats from a lack of sleep I think ive had about 8 or 10 hours in two days.

I shouldnt be had a big D & M with the mr security. I found out the reason I was being a little jelous towards girls he was intrested in.. it was because we hadn't had the "feelings talk" and I was insecure he was only having sex with me cause you know...he can get his willy wet..which isnt that bad but i'd like to think there was some attraction there..which he addmited there was. We are pretty good mates first and foremost and I was getting jelous because I was affraid that if he started having sex with another girl he would just discard me and never speak to me and me having a lack of friends who give a shit atm really value the time we spend together he said he did to and hadn't had a girl that he was friends with in along time so I was totally put at ease i get the best of both worlds now a friend i can always convince to come over and drink with me and crazy drunk sex and then none of the sappy bullshit that comes after ooohh and i can persue mr right in the mean time... i know he is out there somewhere... but for now its all fun and dirty games!!