I"m fine I said but I lied how could I tell him that all I wanted was for him to disapear?
I told him my head was messy and I thought I had lost myself, I just needed time to think... I missed the other man it felt to me that no one could replace him that we shared something special but just couldnt get our acts together, phyiscally and emotionally I would shut him out we fell into bad habbits that neither of us knew how to break... so we parted using the excuse that the spark was just not there anymore but the feelings were.I wasnt prepared for how I would feel after the break up so alone and disgustingly dirty and emotionally retarded and to let another in felt impossible! but he wanted in, my friend had fed me wonderful stories of how things could be things that seemed an improvement on my last attempt of a relationship but things have not started out well and I was left disapointed and wanting nothing more but to be alone once again I know something bigs about to happen that I needed a new start I should not be held back by any boy no matter how sweet the promises I think I need to find myself and work towards some sort of future even if it means loosing a few people on the way people may not understand or try to but this is the way it shall be this is my easy way out the way I choose to deal with things it may not make sence but im content in the fact that I have made the choice and I force this change no matter how much it hurts. I know I will miss dan I know we will meet again when I'm worthy of your hugs.
feeling lifeless. miss novocaine.
I told him my head was messy and I thought I had lost myself, I just needed time to think... I missed the other man it felt to me that no one could replace him that we shared something special but just couldnt get our acts together, phyiscally and emotionally I would shut him out we fell into bad habbits that neither of us knew how to break... so we parted using the excuse that the spark was just not there anymore but the feelings were.I wasnt prepared for how I would feel after the break up so alone and disgustingly dirty and emotionally retarded and to let another in felt impossible! but he wanted in, my friend had fed me wonderful stories of how things could be things that seemed an improvement on my last attempt of a relationship but things have not started out well and I was left disapointed and wanting nothing more but to be alone once again I know something bigs about to happen that I needed a new start I should not be held back by any boy no matter how sweet the promises I think I need to find myself and work towards some sort of future even if it means loosing a few people on the way people may not understand or try to but this is the way it shall be this is my easy way out the way I choose to deal with things it may not make sence but im content in the fact that I have made the choice and I force this change no matter how much it hurts. I know I will miss dan I know we will meet again when I'm worthy of your hugs.
feeling lifeless. miss novocaine.
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whatever is best for you is best, as long as it doesn't harm anyone else..
chin up..
Bloody cicles.
But the good thing is, once you've walked through it once, the next time round feels softer and more beautiful and familiar. And there will be a next time. He'll come round again and crash into you.