You have to leave room to make mistakes. We are human. I get where you're coming from, and in part that this is a bit of a personal pep talk, BUT just remember that. NEVER happens again? You can't put that kind of pressure on yourself. That is what causes us to crack. Be gentle with yourself. You're taking strides to improve. That's everything you need to be doing. That and loving yourself. I'm glad to hear that you found your way back to your friend. That's always such a relief.
I know i’ll make mistakes @gadget , I mostly meant making that same mistake twice. I have seen the errors of my ways and now I have to react to my thoughts and actions before I react to a situation. I was always a victim in my head, now I realize that I can be quite the dramatic asshole as well. Lol.
I know what you mean.It can be tricky because your ego has to take a backseat, while putting your emotional response on mute. Doing so should allow you to think logically while listening to the other person. This will create greater understanding and perspective. After that you can remove the mute from your emotional response and have honest dialogue. That allows things to be much less dramatic. It's really important to stay calm and ask questions to gain greater clarity. It's kinda like a poker face. Don't reveal your true emotions until you're sure they're justified. I find doing this allows me to be less anxious and emotional because instead of 'what if's' and assumptions, I KNOW. It's the only way to not have that shit eat at you. I'm the absolute worst with that. Guilt will be the death of me. It's a big step man. I'm proud of you.
