Hello all!
Wow. Okay, I have finally decided to get off my lazy ass and start being more active on the SG site and as a result this has lead me to write my first blog post (this very one you're reading) :-)
Seeing as this is my first blog post, I thought it was fitting to write about shooting my first set for Suicide Girls :-)
I guess I should tell you what led me to wanting to get my kit off in front of the camera, for the world to see. Well, I have been a fan of the whole Suicide Girls culture since I was 18 (which would of been 2008). I have had a love for tattoos, piercings and body mods longer than I can remember. For so long, I had tried to fit the societal norms, but I found I was always doing it for someone else and it wasn't something that made me comfortable or happy. So, over the past year, I have finally accepted and embraced who I am and have started dressing and acting the way that makes me happiest. This has led to me falling in love with my own body, flaws and all.
One of my best friends, @diamant has been a Suicide Girl Hopeful for a little while now. I finally plucked up the courage last year to ask her what her opinion was on myself shooting a set for Suicide Girls and becoming a Hopeful. To be honest, I was expecting to hear that it was hard and competitive and stressful. But NO, she proceeded to tell me what an amazing community Suicide Girls is. She explained to me that she hadn't met such a loving and welcoming group of peeps before. So, that sealed it for me.
Diamant added me to some groups on Facebook which comprised of Suicide Girls and Hopefuls throughout Australia. Straight away, I was welcomed with open arms and I immediately felt that these were my people.
So, anywho, back to the main point of my blog post - SHOOTING MY FIRST SET <3
At the start of this year, I received an email from @frankndame inviting me to shoot with them at the Sydney Mini Shootfest in March. I legit jumped out of my seat and did a little happy dance. I said yes straight away and started eagerly counting down the days. I spent weeks obsessing over what to wear, only to end up changing my mind at the last minute :-)
All of a sudden, it was shoot day. I woke up that morning so excited but also questioning whether or not I should still do it and basically just overthinking every little thing. I finally calmed myself down and snapped out of my stupid thinking and got to getting ready and heading to the shoot house.
I was a massive ball of nerves driving to the location and was convinced I would walk in to weird looks from other girls (which is so far from the reality). As soon as I walked in, Jaimee from Frank N Dame embraced me in the biggest bear hug and put me at ease instantly. I had arrived about half an hour early so I could relax a bit before getting in front of the camera. This meant I got to watch @akiramai shoot with @victory - and OMG - she fucking killed it! So of course, the nerves came rushing back. But thankfully, @missbijou , @cressida and myself sat out in the sun and had a chat and a laugh. I found out that Cressida was also shooting her debut set and I found that I fed off her positive energy so much :-) I also got to watch @deliirium shoot her set with @coolicio - I cannot wait to see that epicness hit member review.
SNAPCHAT SNAPS W/ MISS BIJOU
Fuck. Okay. I'm rambling. Shit.
Okay, so if you're still with me and reading this, I'll cut to the chase. So, originally I was going to shoot in the kitchen of the house, but Jaimee and I both fell in love with one of the bedrooms which had gorgeous white linen, hardwood floors as well as the cutest shutters I have ever seen. Now is probably a good time to mention that this was the first time I had ever done a nude shoot (unles sending nudes to ex fuck buddies count, but I think not). I swear to god, I was more nervous shooting with clothes on rather than butt naked. The second all my clothes were off, I was in my element. I am pretty confident with my body nowadays, but HOLY SHIT, Jaimee made me feel like the hottest bitch on the planet. If you can shoot with her, DO IT! I was riding on a high from the shoot for weeks!
BEHIND THE SCENES REALNESS W/ FRANK N DAME
Our shoot took just under an hour but it honestly only felt like a couple of minutes. I was super pumped to meet more lovelies who were shooting that day as well, so I stayed behind for a little while after. Throughout the day, I was lucky enough to also meet @erinys , @dollyd , @milafox and a bunch of others babes (I am so sorry to who I didn't mention - my brain is deciding to go blank at the worst of times).
I will be submitting my set in a few weeks and I am so excited for you to all see it (you may of noticed my profile is still as a member - this is why).
I would recommend the experience to absolutely everyone. I have had nothing but amazing experiences with the Suicide Girls community and it is now my safe space to escape from the mundane day to day monotony.
So that's it for my first post! If you have gotten to the end, CONGRATULATIONS LADIES AND GENTS. I shall now reward you with a couple more behind the scenes shots from my debut shoot <3
A massive thank you to you all!
- Kitty x x