It's days like this that I realize how lonely I really am.
It's so pathetic.
Just sitting around all day wallowing in the silence.
I'm not cool, I have no balls to even leave the house.
What am I so afraid of?
I looked at my buddy list today on AIM and was depressed even more. Only one person on it is someone that lives within 50 miles of me. And they live in the same apartment as me.
Everyone else? Canada, pennsylvania, New jersey, florida...my "buddy" list consists of people that I can't even hang out with.
I look at my cell phone...who's numbers are in it? My parents....nathan and his family....not one friend.
Because i don't have any to put in there.
I suck at life. woo.
For once, I just want to feel like I belong somewhere.
It's so pathetic.
Just sitting around all day wallowing in the silence.
I'm not cool, I have no balls to even leave the house.
What am I so afraid of?
I looked at my buddy list today on AIM and was depressed even more. Only one person on it is someone that lives within 50 miles of me. And they live in the same apartment as me.
Everyone else? Canada, pennsylvania, New jersey, florida...my "buddy" list consists of people that I can't even hang out with.
I look at my cell phone...who's numbers are in it? My parents....nathan and his family....not one friend.
Because i don't have any to put in there.
I suck at life. woo.
For once, I just want to feel like I belong somewhere.
I so know that feeling though. I never have anyone to hang out with just my boy and once in a great while a friend that has so many friends she has little time for me. I find myself hanging out my mom a lot, which isn't all that bad. But I want to hang out with people and talk about more nasty things. You know.
I hope things get better.