okay so i have some the conclusion that i must start actually writing here because if i dont i will never socialise with anyone. and considering how many interesting people in this place that would be awful not to experience it properly.
currently my life is at a pretty big turning point. i just broke up with my gf of two years. whom i still live with and work with and see every day. and whos still in love with me and doesnt want to let me go.
and as harsh as it sounds i really dont feel the same. i feel so much freedom now that i let go to be my own person. to be less dependant on someone else and realise i dont need to have someone to complete my existance. im kinda looking forward to being by myself for awhile. just having fun and meeting new people.
on the flip side i have developed a crush on someone already. which sounds like a horrible thing to do after just being in a relationship. but i think i liked them way before i became single. again that sounds bad but you cant help who your attracted to.
but in general i would love to know if there are any girls in sydney who like other girls and know where they all hang out or are interested in making a new friend. id really love to expand my friendship group outide the people ive grown up with. who as much as they try cant really understand me as much as i would like them to.
they have some uncomfortable idea about going to places where people are gay or lesbian or just not straight. like its a realm they cant enter. even though i go to "straight bars" with them all the time. and i dont feel uncomfortable. its just frustrating to not have someone else who understands my attraction to girls. that you cant help who you love or lust over but either way what you feel is amazing and perfect and it doesnt matter what lies between their legs.
in terms of my career i have come to the conclusion that studying photography at COFA was not the best idea. its all so. contrived? everyone wants something amazing and original and beautiful and unique...but it has to have this this this this and this to get a 'pass'. im sick of the constrictions they place on creativity. instead of encouraging it like they intend i feel like they are supressing my style.
i am very proud of myself though for finally investing in an actual camera and not some hand held party snaps piece of crap. i love my SLR sooooo much. and ive finally started working occassionally with film and printing in the darkroom. its fun and hard work. but its so worth it. theres a satisfaction in the final product after so much work.
anyway i think ive rambled on long enough. but yeh if anyone who lives in sydney and is interested in talking to a girl who likes girls and is interested in lots of things feels like making a new friend.
i am here =]
currently my life is at a pretty big turning point. i just broke up with my gf of two years. whom i still live with and work with and see every day. and whos still in love with me and doesnt want to let me go.
and as harsh as it sounds i really dont feel the same. i feel so much freedom now that i let go to be my own person. to be less dependant on someone else and realise i dont need to have someone to complete my existance. im kinda looking forward to being by myself for awhile. just having fun and meeting new people.
on the flip side i have developed a crush on someone already. which sounds like a horrible thing to do after just being in a relationship. but i think i liked them way before i became single. again that sounds bad but you cant help who your attracted to.
but in general i would love to know if there are any girls in sydney who like other girls and know where they all hang out or are interested in making a new friend. id really love to expand my friendship group outide the people ive grown up with. who as much as they try cant really understand me as much as i would like them to.
they have some uncomfortable idea about going to places where people are gay or lesbian or just not straight. like its a realm they cant enter. even though i go to "straight bars" with them all the time. and i dont feel uncomfortable. its just frustrating to not have someone else who understands my attraction to girls. that you cant help who you love or lust over but either way what you feel is amazing and perfect and it doesnt matter what lies between their legs.
in terms of my career i have come to the conclusion that studying photography at COFA was not the best idea. its all so. contrived? everyone wants something amazing and original and beautiful and unique...but it has to have this this this this and this to get a 'pass'. im sick of the constrictions they place on creativity. instead of encouraging it like they intend i feel like they are supressing my style.
i am very proud of myself though for finally investing in an actual camera and not some hand held party snaps piece of crap. i love my SLR sooooo much. and ive finally started working occassionally with film and printing in the darkroom. its fun and hard work. but its so worth it. theres a satisfaction in the final product after so much work.
anyway i think ive rambled on long enough. but yeh if anyone who lives in sydney and is interested in talking to a girl who likes girls and is interested in lots of things feels like making a new friend.
i am here =]
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dmbphoto:
Hey havent seen you on for ages
danceflawinferno:
oh man i miss being in a darkroom. it's been way too long.