I can vaguely relate. My father-in-law passed away just before Thanksgiving 9 or 10 years ago and after my in laws basically just stopped celebrating that holiday. I dont celebrate Christmas but my parents do so I have to go to their house every year. The extended family stopped having gatherings over 20 years ago after my grandmother passed.  Also, since I work in retail I could just do without the holidays.  Best wishes to you and yours and have a blessed Yule. ( a holiday I actually do celebrate)

I can feel your sorrow. Over a decade ago I lost my father, and I still scream out into the dark: "Give me back my father, you son of a bitch". It is still an excuse for the extended family to get together. Find the Joy where you can.

Hey my friend, thank you for the kind words. I'm sorry this is not shaping up to be a wonderful time for you, although one never knows how things will unfold. I had intended to send you a card but this simple idea has proven to be a bit challenging. The universe does not always cooperate with us and although I have lodged official complaints, its indifference shows no sign of giving way. You just can't trust a universe these days. Anyway, be well and stay in touch.

Sorry to hear about your loss Kai. I hope you find some small joy in the craziness of family catch ups and this holiday period in general - perhaps a favourite food, or quiet times with music you enjoy. It's been an extremely difficult 2 years, so your mood is completely understandable. Take care!

my condolences on your loss, good sir :(