k12573n

I am so incredibly stressed out. -_-

I hate coming home because my roommate/best friend won't clean after herself or her fucking cats.

I keep having manic swings in my mood that impair my judgment and make it inevitable for me to make impulsive, reckless decisions, especially concerning money. On the other side of the spectrum, I continue to feel consistently and impossibly depressed.

I'm stuck at a mindless office job because I'm not qualified enough to find a job elsewhere that would pay me anything close to what I make now.

I'm just exhausted and whiney and feel like there's nothing I can do right now to improve my situation other than rein in my spending. What's ridiculous is how out of control I feel with money. It's a huge problem I've always had and I don't know how to control myself in that aspect of my life (along with a few others that cause me a lot of grief). I feel like an idiot because I don't know how to make myself stop even when I comprehend and acknowledge the consequences.

I'm sorry for the rant, I'm just in an agitated state and had to get it out.

If you've messaged me and I'm slow to respond in the next day or two, I'm sorry but I will get back to you when I'm competent enough to form a thoughtful, sincere reply and no sooner.