I saw houses on fire on the TV last night, but i couldnt feel compassion no matter how hard i tried. I was glad that the people were safe. But really, who cares? Its just a house. Maybe thats my Dharma coming through, but as long as we are trapped into material possesions and cling on to one spot, a place we call home, we may never truly grow and be free. Dont get me wrong, i understand that with Home comes Memories, and those are precious, my lord do i know that.
I think this is just my green side talking. You see, for so long i have wanted to actually move out of home, and travel. But complications always, always arise, job/debt etc. So heres where i currently stand - $13000 in debt to pay off a new car, which may sound contradictive to what i said above but i kinda needed it, (trust me, never buy a Kia). I plan to have this paid off by March next year and then either move out with my girl, or save up and go somewhere totally random. Just like my friend.
She has spent the better half of this year studying martial arts/zen/buddhism at the Songshan Shaolin Temple, (i think its in China?! haha). To give you a backstory. I met this girl for a brief 5 minutes at a house party 5 years ago. We clicked straight away, she said 'hold on to this for me', gave me her bracelet, then dissapeared and i never heard from her again until i spoke to her on the net a few years later and found out what shes been up to! So shes back in Sydney now, and im deliberating on calling her or not. Hell, she has my number, and i should give her time to settle or what not, but its my RDO today and im boooooored! If my mate is free we might go play golf, im really in the mood for that
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Sucks ass having weekdays off when all your friends work. You get all hyped up and dont have anyone to share the energy with
. Exercise will cure this i thinks. Come on endorphins, hit me baby.
I think this is just my green side talking. You see, for so long i have wanted to actually move out of home, and travel. But complications always, always arise, job/debt etc. So heres where i currently stand - $13000 in debt to pay off a new car, which may sound contradictive to what i said above but i kinda needed it, (trust me, never buy a Kia). I plan to have this paid off by March next year and then either move out with my girl, or save up and go somewhere totally random. Just like my friend.
She has spent the better half of this year studying martial arts/zen/buddhism at the Songshan Shaolin Temple, (i think its in China?! haha). To give you a backstory. I met this girl for a brief 5 minutes at a house party 5 years ago. We clicked straight away, she said 'hold on to this for me', gave me her bracelet, then dissapeared and i never heard from her again until i spoke to her on the net a few years later and found out what shes been up to! So shes back in Sydney now, and im deliberating on calling her or not. Hell, she has my number, and i should give her time to settle or what not, but its my RDO today and im boooooored! If my mate is free we might go play golf, im really in the mood for that
.
Sucks ass having weekdays off when all your friends work. You get all hyped up and dont have anyone to share the energy with
. Exercise will cure this i thinks. Come on endorphins, hit me baby.
Though I would prefer the courage to cast off everything and just disappear like the girl who went studying zen martial arts the next best thing would be stability and routine and waking hung over on a Saturday morning after many a tequila slammer Friday night after I've knocked off work for the week.
Ah, to dream