Hey there! It's just me writting another shitty entry.
It's been a while (not really, just like 3 or 3 days, who the fuck knows) and actually not a lot has happened in that period of time I was away. You know, my usual day cycle repeating all over again every single fucking day. Like I said before "Same shit, different day".
I was thinking of writting a rant like entry about all the shit i've seen on the internet, but I'm pretty sure nobody would read those, Hell, i'm even lucky if someone reads the shit that I've written before.
To be honest I would be lying if I said that everything is just an exact copy of what happened the previous day. True, nothing is actually worth mentioning but not everything is the same. For example, I woke up today with a sporadic pain on my left lung and two days ago I created a meme, sure it died in one night, but it was cool to see people spamming a comment I did.
Also something that I've been recently doing when i'm on my laptop is that i've been looking for opportunities to go to a different country. Something like going to live and work or study and live, or all of the listed.
I was looking for opportunities at the Canadian Embassy to go to work and live there for years straight (Yeah, I've heard that there are opportunities sometimes, but I just can't seem to find where they are posted) and as well I was looking at a website here that lists all the opportunities for a scholarship outside the country, but lets say that the only two things I have that are in the list of things needed to apply is that I'm alive and that I know english (barely).
So, I was trying to get the things straight inside of my mind while I was laying on my bed with my eyes closed hoping to sleep and I couldn't help but feel like I was going to be trapped the rest of my life, I mean, I don't have any particular skills that could grant me a scholarship for outside the country or a job opportunity outside of the country, I'm as well trapped here at my house because I'm afraid of doing anything because of what my family might think of me and the worst part is that I'm trapped with them.
The only thing that would get me out of here is if I got married to a woman in other country and she would tell me to go live with her, and you know that, that happening is near impossible.
So I'm here trapped in my house, in my country and specially inside of me.
I have no love, no friends, no one to help me out of the hole I'm in.
I feel alone...
I might as well be better off dead.
Anyways, to lighten up the mood of this entry, I just recently got into watching Tokusatsu shows again, I started to watch Hikonin Sentai Akibaranger and picked up Kamen Rider Ryuki from where I left it when I stopped watching Tokusatsu a month ago.
It helps me to get distracted a lot and this Akibaranger show is really funny.
Before I sign off I have to say that I haven't got that haircut I wanted and I still look like a bootleg version of Shaggy.
Goodnight and Godspeed