Well, we started with the right foot, I guess... anyways I was thinking of all the things that I forgot to add yesterday to my post, so I think i'll put them in this one.
There were several things that I never detailed yesterday actually. Maybe things that actually nobody would consider interesting to read or things that I just forgot to add because I got distracted with a picture of a dog I saw online.
But at the end I'll add them anyways.
Lets see... I included the fact that I was 23, useless, virgin loser, depressed and introverted as fuck. Also that I enjoy Anime and video games, but I failed to mention some other things about me, like the fact that I live with my parents (Don't judge, in some latin american countries is normal to live with your parents until you get married or leave on your own), I'm currently unemployed and I stay trapped in my house thinking that it would be better to be dead.
What a catch right!? Any mother would like to have me as a boyfriend for her daughter.
Something that I never mentioned is that, Richard Dawkins is not my co-pilot. Since I was raised on a really christian family, I actually believe in God.
Don't jump to the "Oh he believes in God, he's going to throw bibles at us and send us to hell" conclusion just yet.
Like I said, I do believe that there's a God, and he's looking at me from where ever he is with a look of utmost disappointment. Well maybe not, just because I havent killed anyone, but I since I do watch porn, masturbate and have "unholy thoughts" sometimes.
The tricky part is that I actually don't think that he cares if i do masturbate or have wild sex or even smoke weed , as long as I don't ruin somebodys shit and actually try to be a better person myself and with everyone.
I mean, If me fucking your brains out makes you happy, who am I to deny that for you?
As of right now I'm sitting in front of my dying laptop eating cheesecake and drinking coca cola, listening to Claude Debussy, Clair De Lune... I always loved that song, I feel like it touches the deepest reaches of me, makes feelings that I didn't even knew I could feel to bloom. The first time I listened to it, it actually almost brought me to tears.
Something that brings me to the fact that I actually always wanted and I still want to learn how to play piano.
Something that I want to bring up is the fact that I actually lied when I said that i have no goals. If i can say, my goals have always been to be happy. Even if right now I'm not happy, I want to be happy. I always have thought that something that would bring me close to my happyness, would be to go and live on my own, without having to worry about what my family thinks about X or Y thing that I want to do.
I always pictured my life living in an apartment with my girlfriend and a dog or cat, maybe even both. Away from my house, away from my country. Being a full time streamer at Twitch, a Youtuber (or both) or being the chef of my Foodtruck along with my wife (or girlfriend), have always been things that I saw as by goals. I know it's kinda like an impossible dream or maybe even utopical to think that it can happen, I'm afraid.
Besides that I have to mention too that I enjoy learning languages. I learned the english by myself and I started learning japanese some months ago, it's a slow process, but it's way more fun when it's like that.
With that said I have to say that I do have skills, and the skill that I know tht I have is that i'm autodidact or a self-taught person.
I think that's it with the "important" stuff, but I have to reveal that I have a strange liking for ASMR videos on Youtube. Something in having someone whisper at me makes me feel less lonely.
At the end of this I have to thank you mysterious reader and the 4 people that liked my previous blog, for taking the time to read my bullshit and if you want you can say hi. I won't bite, unless you want me to of course.
Goodnight and Godspeed.