jon87uk

Last was too depressing so I have to write something else. Hmmm, I just don't know how to get my head around all of this its very confusing and frustrating.

This summer job will be well worth it but it has just been such an awful hassle to get everything through and they lie through there teeth with how smooth it should all go. And I'm now scaring myself to hell with the fact I'm going to have to resit exams and then I'll have to come back early and then I'll be messing the contract up and be in all kinds of mess. Grrrrrrr.

Really want to just be able to get away for a week and chill without everyone around me, so I can unwind...I always thought being in a city would allow me to meet more cool people, but I realise now that the only really cool people out there are only to be found when you aint looking, or when you're loooking in totally the wrong places. Mainly living in ideals that will only ever exist in the space between my ears...if there is anything in there. Really wish I could write one of these things that didn't become merely a rant of one form or another. Maybe one day I'll move on from being an emotional mess of a tenn and grow into being a real adult. Hope I can have more fun before then and that I really can find someone who I can share all this with in real life.

Okay, I shall now quit whilst I'm ahead. Please join me again soon for more on the lovelyness that is a train wreck, and yes, she is the train driver, there always seems to be one train around here.