jolie1

Time for a change. Over the past few weeks, I've been realizing how much I have settled for in my life. Settled for who I want to be, what I want to do, who my friends are, what I expect from people, how I expect to get treated by people. I don't want to be 40 and look back and be sorry that I wasted so much time not going after what I want. I'll be 24 this month. This isn't what I want to be at 25. I'm raising my standards and expectations, for myself and the people around me.


So I went out last night with my usual Friday girls to the usual Friday place. One of my best friends ended up meeting us...which should have been exciting because I haven't hung out with him in a while...but turned out just getting on my nerves. Now, I am the only female in my closest circle of friends...I just get along with boys better and I am very territorial about them ie: I would never be with any of them...they are like my brothers...but I still feel like they are mine and hate when they have girls...crazy, I know. So, the two casual girlfriends that I am with decide that my boy is the hottest thing ever and the project of the night is to make out with him all drunken and ridiculous in the middle of the bar...quality, eh? So I sat there the rest of the night feeling slightly disgusted, mostly annoyed, and more aware than ever why my best friends are boys.

So, I've actually been tanning lately...this would probably be more impressive if you knew that I was the palest person in the world and have only had a tan that wasn't bright red about twice in my life. I'm also ready for a change in my hair. I've been letting it grow in and I think I'm ready for my white-blonde chunks. I've been crazy over clothes lately...lots of trips to the thrift store and cutting and sewing to make new things. I just feel stuck in a rut with things...time for some craziness...my favorite.