suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. The reason it is considered selfish is because of the people you leave behind. They are left grieving and wondering what they did wrong, or what could have do to help you prevent it.

Maybe there is a reason you're still alive. I know it sounds hokey, but you listed a lot of coincidences - being found when you attempted suicide, not having your gun, insurance doesn't cover suicide deaths, etc. You may or may not believe in that kind of thing, but maybe there's something you're still meant to do. *shrug*

That said, I do not think suicide is selfish. A lot of people feel the same way as the above comment and say that it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. But sometimes the problem isn't temporary. I can't say that I've been depressed as many years as you have, but I have felt overwhelmed by the prospect of spending another sixty years alive with the "mental problems." Sometimes you just want to leave.

But I hope you don't.

XBOX all the way. Me and my roommates are pulling an all nighter and trying to beat it. That probably isn't going to happen since Big Sister is a BITCH! But we're having fun nonetheless!

thanks for the support on my set

means a lot xx