I feel that I have something to say and can possibly help others and I want to reach others so Im going to stay around here and see what happens.
I am going to be here more to get out my thoughts and feelings out in an open place. Though its nice to get the approval of some lovely pierced girl (and I appreciate it), thats not going to make me a better or healthier person.
I have always felt different and have probably been depressed most of my life and thats why I originally connected with the people on this site. I realized that I wasnt alone and I could struggle and learn from others here. I will continue to do that but I have to stop relying on others approval. Im 24 and when depressed act and think like a child.
Though this is a great website and it makes a lot of taboo things acceptable, there is still a lot of negativity and closed minds. I am idealistic and like to believe that everyone has an open mind but they dont and I am idealistic enough to think that maybe I can at least make someone think.
Depression and drugs have taught me that you cannot truly understand something unless you go through it. Its easy for a happy person to tell a depressed person to snap out of this and get on with your life but a depressed person will tell you how everyday is a struggle.
Dont begin to think you understand the closeted homosexual unless you sit in his shoes and hear the ignorant people and the ignorant jokes.
And dont think that you understand my position unless you go back to middle school and hear the kids say they would kill themselves or at least drop out of school if they contracted HIV. Or the kid who had cancer who said he wouldnt even talk to an HIV + person. Or go to the assemblies where dying AIDS victims try and scare kids into making the right decision. Sit there while they scare the shit out of you because you are already infected.
Dont try and understand something that you have no way of understanding.
Open your mind and learn to forgiveI am sick and have gone through rebellious destructive periods. I apologize once again for making you people try and join me but I regret nothing. I dont need bullshit friends who Im never going to hang out with anyway.
I am going to be here more to get out my thoughts and feelings out in an open place. Though its nice to get the approval of some lovely pierced girl (and I appreciate it), thats not going to make me a better or healthier person.
I have always felt different and have probably been depressed most of my life and thats why I originally connected with the people on this site. I realized that I wasnt alone and I could struggle and learn from others here. I will continue to do that but I have to stop relying on others approval. Im 24 and when depressed act and think like a child.
Though this is a great website and it makes a lot of taboo things acceptable, there is still a lot of negativity and closed minds. I am idealistic and like to believe that everyone has an open mind but they dont and I am idealistic enough to think that maybe I can at least make someone think.
Depression and drugs have taught me that you cannot truly understand something unless you go through it. Its easy for a happy person to tell a depressed person to snap out of this and get on with your life but a depressed person will tell you how everyday is a struggle.
Dont begin to think you understand the closeted homosexual unless you sit in his shoes and hear the ignorant people and the ignorant jokes.
And dont think that you understand my position unless you go back to middle school and hear the kids say they would kill themselves or at least drop out of school if they contracted HIV. Or the kid who had cancer who said he wouldnt even talk to an HIV + person. Or go to the assemblies where dying AIDS victims try and scare kids into making the right decision. Sit there while they scare the shit out of you because you are already infected.
Dont try and understand something that you have no way of understanding.
Open your mind and learn to forgiveI am sick and have gone through rebellious destructive periods. I apologize once again for making you people try and join me but I regret nothing. I dont need bullshit friends who Im never going to hang out with anyway.
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the chat room is real lame, but like i said i wont complain, SG is supposed to be my happy place
i joined SG mainly for the porn, but i think isnce i joined i have developed a more open mind to different sub-cultures and lifestyles since being here for a year or so
keep your chin up, no matter what. if things go bad, something will go good. always.