I am trying. The hurt comes in waves and for long periods of time all I can do is cry. Then I start feeling like I am going to pass out. That night I actually fainted and fell.

All the pictures you post make me want to move to Idaho. It's so beautiful there. My friend tells me if I decide to pack up and leave I should try Wyoming too...lol. I've always said I'm going to run away to Alaska though.

I'm glad you had a great holiday and great holiday sex We did a lot of holiday running around so no Xmas fooling around but made up for it with naked weekend the past two days.

I am still sending them out. It's been fun getting to know and meet new people.

Chiari II was part of the diagnosis with oh so much more. I only knew about that because of you. Interesting how that is.

Sounds like a lovely Christmas. I'm so glad Flashmo is home!
Did I ever tell you how much I LOVE your dog pound. Every time you post a picture of them pups like the ones here, I just melt. I wanna sit on the floor and play with them like ZPO got to!

I have never gardened in my life. I can't keep a house plant alive. I'm a stone cold killer that way.

All the snow melted away. I am so glald. I wasn't really having much fun.
How's it there?

I'm glad your son is doing so much better. You must feel a huge sense of relief.
and the diagnosis that was only one smaill piece. There is so so much more. ugh. Weird life.

Tell Flashmo hi.

That was a wonderful blog to read! I'm so glad things are going great at home. You deserve it!

I'll try to update later, but if you can't wait, the pics are all on facebook.

I love you, Jewelz!!!!!!!

Sounds like an awesome Christmas. A return to normalcy alone sounds magnificent. Hope you have a great time ringing in the new year!

Wishing you and yours a happy and healthy New Year.

This has been a trying year for both of us. Having you as a friend has made it bearable.

Sorry I mjssed your call!! I was in the car on my way home from the Airport with Bitten!!

Happy Un-Birthday...erm....Almost Birthday...Just About Birthday...Fuck it....early BIRTHDAY to you, you hot and sexy woman!!!!! YEAHH to alla us over 40 geezers!!!!

You are so kind to snow blow all your neighbors. Um, that came out wrong. Flashmo did the snow blowing with his trusty snowblower, so you get what I mean, eh?

Love to you and the pups!!!

Here's hoping that your New Year is healthy, happy, prosperous, and filled with talented lap dancers to boot!!!
Happy New Year!!!!

Peace (((hugs)))

I'm glad you had a nice Christmas and hope your New Years Eve is just as good.

As usual, you have brightened my day with your words and thoughts.

2009 just HAS to get better. It's hard to imagine being able to take much more of the status quo.

Happy birthday Gorgeous. Hope you have a wonderful new years and BDay xxx

Happy New Year to you and Flashmo and all your loves.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year! I would love to attend your birthday party. Damn, 45 and still hotter than most girls half her age.

Happy New Year Jewelz!!!!

you can most certainly join us for Sushi and I'm buying!

That is great about you and your hubby! Congrats!

Happy 2009!
Wishing you and yours the all the best!

Glad you got my text. I was having the hardest time getting through to people. I suspect I may have sent you and others multiple texts unintentionally.

I had a really nice New Year's eve with several friends and Mae-Ann. I was able to feel a little like my old self for a few hours. I wish it could have lasted indefinitely.

I hope you get everything you want in the coming year.

Thanks for the card.