Those "stop and look and what you've got" moments can really be eye opening. In spite of the challenges we face, most of us are actually pretty fortunate over all. Even with stuff like Ryan, you got him to where it seems he needs to be, and what more can any of us ever ask than that?
I would say that you are the poster girl for verve, and appreciation for all that life has to offer. What sucks is how difficult that makes it for karma to keep up with you. Eventually, I'm confident that it will. You are a real inspiration, and to a greater degree than you could imagine. Like I've said before, "Baby, you're the greatest." >'; /j,
I can't believe how similar we are. I can easily see myself feeling the same way if I was in a similar situation as you. I've had my share of troubles. My cancer scare last spring comes prominently to mind (I don't think we were friends yet,). I still tried to be there for my friends despite my fears and apprehensions. I'm no saint. In my case, wanting to be involved was probably a way of taking my mind off of my troubles more than anything else.
It is good to focus on the things we have rather then what we don't. Live is not even that does not mean that it is not fair.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
It is something that we should keep in mind.
The Shakers did hold with that outlook:
"Make something as if you would use it for a 1000 years,
possess it as if you'll be dead tomorrow."
I hope that there is a speedy and happy resolve
to this situation.
I'm so glad you're my friend honey. It's true though eh, I too have lost one of my friends this past week or so and rather than wallow (which I've been doing this entire year) this one event has turned things around for me. I don't know why or how or anything but I'm feeling so much better about things. We are, each and every one of us, lucky to be alive and need to be more grateful. I believe that Ryan is now in the best hands and all will be well in the end. You're the most amazing person, mother, wife and friend and I love you very much.
There is no such thing as telling someone you love them too much. If you love someone, you love them and you tell them that you love them every chance you get.
I'm keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers still and I hope that everything works out for the best. And soon.
xoxo