I have just figured out something i am a mean person. i left someone i was with to be with someone i thought was better. i hurt someone that i truely did care about to make my life better for me. I left a place where I had someone but no job to a nother place to find a job. Now i am better off I can pay for my own food insted of eating half of his that was stolen from his work. I have someone who is a father and knows the resposabliity of being a parent. When i was in dallas i was drinking the nights away and when i found time i would see my kids. about once a week. I smoked like a train about to go off track and sepent hours on the computer doing nothing. I went out every fucking night and stumbled in late at night and then wandered the mall makeing it look like i was looking for a job. here i have a job i have a car i have an apartment in my name i have money in my pocket i have food on the table my kids are the main thing i left behind that i regret but her ican get them healthcare and here i can provide them a home. so am i a bad person? i don't know any more....
the ex has a new gf a shinney new one. and seems to be happy. just waiting to see if he boots me out of his life as a friend. sigh
the ex has a new gf a shinney new one. and seems to be happy. just waiting to see if he boots me out of his life as a friend. sigh
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baddog_ar:
I hope that you have a happy birthday
plaidhangover:
Happy Birthday!