Finally writing about my return, well things have been alittle odd trying to get back into the way of normal living. I didn't realize how much the 15 months in Iraq really changed me and my way of thinking. Not all for the bad but not all good either. I find myself alittle on guard when in crowded places and haven't really gotten alot of sleep. I've been to see someone and thats probly the smartest thing I could have done. I've been doing this a long time and you don't really get how hard it is till its all you know and have to live for. I'm 34 years old with 14 years in the Army and i find myself trying to live a life that meets my age and responsibility level but i can't seem to do that. I find myself living a life of James Dean "live fast, die young and leave a good looking corps". Its almost like i can't slow down cause my life in Iraq was so get up and go and busy busy all the time that by slowing down i start to lose my edge. Ok good things that have happened, i've been getting noticed alot more the the females around me, I guess that 3 hour 5 day a week gym plan is working out. I do feel good to get the complements cause thats never really happened to me. The one problem is all the girls that hit on me are just that girls(18-23) not that i should really feel bad about that but I do tent to feel alittle like a dirty old man, besides most of them couldn't handle what i would do to them NE ways. I need an attractive tattooed chick about my age or at least within like 5-7 years of it that can handle me and my work and social life. If you know any let me know. well i think i have gone on long enough, besides its time to live the James Dean life style again. TO THE BAR PEOPLE!! More updates are coming soon. bye for now