I hope you find what you're looking for. Contentment is easy to obtain, they say. So far I have yet to achieve it. Perhaps you might use some perspective?

Try "Ishmael" by Daniel Quinn.

Fantastic book. I don't think you'd regret it.

As well, reading Gravity's Rainbow is a feat. Don't be discouraged that you have yet to complete it.

And as for the physical shape you are in, here is a motivator: I'm going to be working out soon. Since I nearly kicked your ass before, you might need to do something to ensure I don't completely destroy your male ego when I fully kick your ass.

: D

Best of luck, my friend.

Hope this finds you well and on your way to being content.

But remember, its only after you've lost everything then you're free to do anything.

Well....I'll come up to visit. But I'm a terrible actress. Turns out I blush really bad when onstage... I can maybe do some readings for you so you can get a feel for it. I don't know about performing....

I guess we'll have to see. I'll keep in touch though. And if you want...I can read it and give you my thoughts. Feel free to send it. I'm not a bitch when I read through people's efforts.
I know how it goes. i used to be a playwright myself.

: )